I don't want to miss him. I have been trying so hard to stay out of his life.
But now that the imediate crisis is over I miss him again. Now in a heart rending way, just in a deep sad kinda way. And it's not even an issue what he thinks of me. I accept what he thinks of me. I am beginning to respect myself again inspite of it, and it would be nice if he thought better of me, but that's not what I want. What I am realy missing is just hearing about how he's been and what he's up to.
I miss Allen also, but I will see him as soon as school isn't killing me anymore. Sighs. School is eating my lunch right now. It didn't like being pretty much compleatly ignored for a whole week in the middle of the semester.
Walter and I are doing good. I am a little afraid we are spending to much time together. Not realy from my side but at this point I am pretty much his life, and that's just not healthy.
Anne and I.
I'm hungry but I don't have time for breakfast.
I don't know what I am going to do to help walter.
But I do know what I am doing today after class. Homework for networking. And tomarrow after class? Homework for AI. And the day after that and the day after that and the day after that.... .
note at 10:56
warm fuzzy feeling and tears at the same time
damn irrational emotions